Love, tell me~~~

If I cry openly
Will it move you Love?
Or do you feel stable
Only when I smile and pretend
That my blooms are wilting not
That my moons are not breaking into pieces
That my summery haven has not turned eerie!

Pray, if I allow myself to show that I am openly torn
Will you gather me back in one piece
Cradle me up on your lap
And comfort me with the urgency
Of a divine lover?

A divine lover, Love,
For chosen you have been by the skies
Chosen for a purpose which transcends the limits
Of life and death as humans know it!

I wish I had my magic wand with me
I would have shown you the cause behind it all
But the Gods pushed me here
To suffer and to agonise
As would Earth herself, seeing the plight of her children!

Of course, I remain eternally yours
Of course, I shall sit and wait
As the suns and the moons alternate
I shall sit and wait on the cliffs
For when you would tell me
That you would abide to the skies' wish!

I shall wait for as long as my heart would allow me to
Someday,
Should you choose not to abide
As, in the very end,
Love implies giving space, and,
Your freedom remains yours to play with
I shall immortalize myself
By plunging into the waters lashing out at those cliffs
Turning into foams
Forever meant to vent off my laments on the seafloor,
My tears forever meant to fill it up!

Pray, be not worried,
My meaning had been you and still is you, all along
I shall not be able to hate you
I shall pray to have the Gods forgive you
As you do own the right to make your own choice!

Why, Love, tell me
If I cry openly,
Will it move you
Will you dry my tears
With your kisses and your caresses
Or will you simply roll your eyes
And move on?

I will write~~~

I will write as long as I can, whispered I to the silent skies
Silent skies projecting to us the clammy night
Clammy night lighting up in me
The fires of desire
Those same fires with which we burnt
In bed, once when the Earth was not even conceived yet
Those same fires with which we are meant to burn
In this one life and the many others to come!

I will write as much as I can said I stubbornly to the skies
I will, because it calms the hurt!
For my heart I have asked from you
Because I found its anchorage
I found it and I want it planted there,
Being the one rare flower which shall be taken care of!

If I don't write, my soul will suffocate
And will wilt into a diseased lover
Too sick to even hold my prayer books in hand
And pray to have Love's soul awakened!
Too sick to even hold my mala beads in hand
And pray, seeking repentance for my tantrums thrown
While I agonised!


I will write on the skies and you, skies, will disseminate my writings
To the whole cosmos!
Yes, take my poems to the Gods,
Let them read of my hearty laments!
Take my poems to the dark forces
May they be appeased with my outburst!
Take them to Love
So that he does understand
That our bond is much wanted by the Gods
And that without his love
I would simply fade into starry dust!

But if I don't, I shall have to cry day and night
Till submerged by my feelings
I shall turn into a mummified mystery
One whose existence baffled the whole world
One whose death shall remain a puzzle!

Pray, in this mad world, where existing equates
To being inflicted with sorrow
I have been whispered of how we are to be saved,
Love and I!
I seek to open the gates of my floral garden
And show him of the blooms that I have nurtured
Merely for his sake!
I seek to whisper those secrets which had been whispered to me
As I slept in the dark night
By the Goddesses watching over me
I seek to blush and fill his chest with feverish sparkles
As we'll sway together in half lit rooms
Fragranced with divine essences!
I seek to drown under his ardour
Totally lost, having forgotten the world over
But aware only of his presence and his intense charisma!

I shall write as long as I can, whispered I to the silent skies
I shall write of our story, of how it began in this life,
Of how connected it is to the past one,
Of how it shall continue in the next

I shall write, said I,
Only for Love!
Yes, I shall write as much as I can
Only to fill his heart and soul
With my mystic words
Words which shall pave the way for us both
To be back there in that world
From which we both fell!

The Gods' Wish

Love,
The Gods wish it that you be my God,
And their wish
Remains, as it has always been,
Mine own!

Love,
Hope inhabits me,
It has invaded me,
As creepers invaded the castle of Sleeping Beauty
So much that now,
It has become the ladder
Which I desperately grope on to
To try to save myself
From the murky waters of this false Earth!

Should you wish to water my hope
And turn it into an everlasting show of blasting fireworks
Know that my pain would be appeased
As,
Both of our souls would ease their way back
To there where youth and joy
Rule the medium of existence!

Should you wish to destroy the ladder,
Know that I shall abide
As long as my own inner strength would allow me to!

Love, without you, I would be of no use
I would have no cause
I would lose faith in existing
And I would choose
To turn, like Ariel,
Into foams which shall rage along the sea floor
As long as the Gods would want me to!

Love,
Human life is fickle
Yet,
It remains the foundation ground for us to be tested
Should we please the Gods,
Know that we shall sit in their court
Being as mighty as they are
Being as indestructible as they are!

Love,
I have only a tiny amount of breath left in me
That which allows me to hold is none other
Than the hope to see someday
My wish
Fulfilled!

Pray, Love,
Destroy me not,
Water me, rather
Water me with your energy
And allow me
To bloom both our souls out
Of this illusory world!