Death and renascence~~~

The sight of the moon glowing majestically in the night sky

Is powerful enough as to make me feel as light as a feather

Free and carefree, having not, on my heart's scale,

The weight of ego weighing me dangerously down!

Its huge misty fluorescent mass of mystery

Allows me to smile

Even if I sit like I have always been sitting,

Still and alone

On those high cliffs of that land bordering those raging oceans

For, its silvery glow

Gives my heart wings,

And like a never seen before butterfly,

It can only flutter in its own essence

Feeling as ecstatic as an awakened saint

Having been touched by a spark of divine light!

Why, somewhere, in the deep space

Lies the power which willed me to be

Somewhere, in the deep space

Lies the soul of that entity which connects all life

Somewhere, up there,

Lies the abode of the Gods

The abode for which my heart submits dutifully to life

And to its many tumultuous whims!

Why, the moon and I share powerful vibes

As I close my eyes and allow myself to connect to its fluorescence

I relish the upsurge of silent tears which slide down my cheeks

Washing, in their flow, the wounds of Ego

And that of the ignorant state of Man!

Pray, I act, merely because the skies have willed me to

I act out of love for this power that rules me

I act, because life is connected,

To its past one and to its future one

And saving a deep rooted history is for me,

A must, one being even more meaningful

Than maintaining a legacy!

The sight of the moon glowing majestically in the night sky

Fills me up with strength

To its essence do I give myself,

As if I were an enthralled moth

Attracted, impulsively to the light of Existence

Into its darkness do I allow myself to die

Only to resurrect, at dawn

As one with a new day bursting forth in me!

The similes of my meaning

Pray, my motto is to fret not about what happens on Earth
My motto is to focus on what shall come next
Yet, when the afterworld
Remains connected to this one
When its foundation
Depends on this one
How am I to keep my motto alive
How am I to tackle life
When, in the very end,
My essence sums me up as being mere woman!

Mere woman bound by rules
By ethics, by laws, by stereotypes
By traditions, by a set of conventions!
Mere woman, frail on the inside
Yet, seemingly strong on the outside
Betrayed only by the sensitivity which is radiated
From my limpid eyes!

The meaning of mine own existence
Has been unveiled
The meaning of mine own existence
Shall be followed in the next one
To it, I do submit
As leaves do fall, by themselves, in winter,
As flowers do bloom, by themselves, in spring
As bees do buzz joyfully, in the summer
As bears do get ready to sleep, in autumn
And as tides do follow the moon's pull!

Why, instinctively, so do I follow my meaning
As without it,
Existing would be so void
And would cause my soul to crumble
As easily as would man made structures
When faced with nature's rage!

The shadows and I~~~~

The shadows close over the meadows
Leaving me hurt and broken
The shadows engulf everything
And I,
Stoic,
Can only bite my lips
While I seek the shelter of my home!

Once in, I close the curtains
Make myself a warm dinner,
After which I do open the Book of Life
To allow its words to seep into my being
As to make me cling on to the fact
That the skies have hinted at me
The directions of my fate
So as to allow the blinding light of existence
To destroy those impressive shadows!

Pray, if life opens not its mouth
To let us know of our purpose
While we do play in its meadows
Are we to fear it?
Renounce it?
Or are we to embrace it?
But if the mysterious powers of unknown essence
Have given us their blessings
Are we not to follow them
As someday, somehow
We shall meet with them face to face
And shall then see, with a new vision
How all the puzzle pieces fit into their places!

Pray, why should I fear those looming shadows
They shall go as per their set time and mechanism
They shall go and give way to sunlit meadows
Where I shall be able to go and play
To my heart's content
And my soul's pleasure!

Why should I fear anything about life
When I have, in my heart,
The words of the skies
As they had guided me,
Once, when the hour was late
And the shadows looming over,
Deep and dark!

My true side

The Queen of Bees
Disguised
As the Queen of Fairies
Can Misguide!
Be Terrified!
Of this Innocent Side.

A lonely Enchantress
Did fall prey to your prowess
A lonely Demeter
Like a handsome predator
You make me yearn for your caress!

I will not be abated.
Our souls will not be abandoned.
My heart is overwhelmed
And Distressed.
When will you be Tender?
It is to be of the Highest Order
To give the Queen of Bees
By falling on your knees
A Kiss so passionate
That she will cease
To be the Queen of Bees
But will culminate
Into the Queen of Fairies
To fill your lonely Abode
With beautiful cherries
And great merries
With the Action
Of her Seduction!

Life, teach me

Life, teach me,
Teach me how to live you
Teach me how to love you
Teach me, please do
Teach me how to accept you
How to bow down to you
And how to smile at everything about you?

Pray, walking amidst the fruit trees in your orchards
I remain thirsty
When you do push me into your thriving oceans
I seek fresh water
When you do propel me onto your lands,
Where all is available,
I remain fearful, confused, sorrowful,
Needy and empty!

Life, teach me,
How to live you
Is it that I don't like you
Is it that I abandoned my wings
And the magic at the tips of my fingers
When I chose to fall into your womb?
Is it that my place is not amidst your chef d'oeuvres
But somewhere, somewhere, where it is said
That beings see without eyes
And love without abusing
Is it that a part of me knows about my origin
And the whole of me simply lives
As I am compelled to?

Life, I wish, I wish,
I had the will to laugh at all times
I wish I could make you laugh as well
But I am a mere torn and worn doll
Sewn back together by the mystery that surrounds you
It has imposed upon me to get back up and to walk
To stride, to run even, while hoping
That while I do so, I shall obtain those answers to those questions
Which haunt me!

The limits of my own self~~~

Life sent me gratitude
But I, too bent on my own ego
Put it in the trash
And focused on myself!

Life sent me hard work
But I, too bent on my own pain
Put it in the trash
And focused on trivialities!

Life sent me the key to eternity's gates
But I, too bent on false pleasures
Put it in the trash
And focused on the mundane!

Life sent me its own revealed secrets
But I, too bent on only that which I could see
Put them in the trash
And focused on shadows which shine during the day!

Life, fed up with me,
Left me,
And went on its way
While, I,
Mere human among millions of others
Tried to make myself believe
That I shall be happy,
While I do focus on my ego, on my pain,
On false pleasures and on that which I could see!

Life kept an eye on me,
And from time to time
Sent to me,
Flowers freshly picked from its own garden
So as to allow me to inhale their fragrance
While hoping that such would bring me to be awakened
And to see,
The importance of that which life does send to me!

Pray, gratitude, hard work, mysticism and revealed secrets,
All do help to give life a meaning
But I, mere butterfly
Trying to battle the winds of life
Can only respond to life
As per the limits of my own self!

Love's Colloquy

Say, do you fear Death
I asked Love
As our entwined selves shone in the clear glow of the moon
One night, as we sat on the edge of a pond,
Our bodies, exhausted,
Lost in amorous contemplation!

What about you, Love asked?
Be honest,
Tell me,
What does meeting with Death imply to you?

Why, laughed I,
Nor do I fear it,
Nor do I yearn for it
Yet, Death is what we do both require
Don't you know,
That the skies willed it that we do be
Don't you know,
That the skies do will it that we cross the borders together
Don't you know,
That we are awaited with much zeal
Don't you know
That we are being missed, there, in that world we left
For the sake of our love
Our love, which suffered a crack
For the sake of a mistake
A mistake which I have already forgiven
As,
While I did tread, all alone in the murky waters of Earth,
I've felt the affliction of my separation from you
Weigh on me, so heavily
That,
I even asked the Gods to have me in a state
Of not existing!

Pray, Love, when we have chosen to carry it
Along with us
As if it were our sole duty,
Is meant to be glorified and to be celebrated
Love, true and divine,
Even if it got torn because of a crack
Can never disintegrate into nothingness
Love, rather,
Blooms, solidifies
And even transcends, through Death
Into eternity!

Death does not scare me, my Love
I shall hold your hands,
Ecstatic, as we cross the limits of Earth,
As it shall be happening as the skies had willed it to me once,
When my dawn was all morose and gloomy
Death does not scare me
As it remains the portal
Through which, you and I,
Shall return home!

Say, do you fear Death
I asked Love
As our entwined selves shone in the clear glow of the moon
That night, as we sat on the edge of a pond
Our bodies exhausted
Lost in amorous contemplation!

Why should I fear it, said Love
If I shall be with you in Death,
Then I do revere it!

Till then~~~

I shall wait for the rain to stop falling
To go and play in the forests
All alone, free and dreamy
Knowing that hope lies at the corner
As the skies have thrust their will upon my soul!

I shall wait for the summer's warmth to be back
To sit on high cliffs at night
All alone, teary and still dreamy
To admire the moon's mastery
As it never gives up in trying to make me smile!

I shall wait for the winds to blow the right way
To fly, all alone, light and airy,
Over meadows peopled by fairies and elves
Hoping that they shall deem me as being their Queen
And allow me to rule over them!

I shall wait for waves to feel tired
To enjoy, all alone and naked
A dip in their depths
Hoping to meet with the merry mermaids
So that they do hand over to me
The secret to enrapt love!

I shall wait for birds to stop singing
To climb on high trees, all alone
All hopeful and cheerful
To pretend that I can pluck stars
To give to the blind and the ignorant
So that the burden of life hurt them no more!

I shall wait for clouds to stop travelling
To lay back, on green grass,
Refreshed and energized
All alone, feeling like I've flown back into childhood
And try to read the stories they display to us
Over the blue screen of the silent skies!

I shall wait for love to stop its routine
To open my secret book, revived and gratified
In its company,
To read to it, of how many past lives we have survived
To have been mystically graced in this one
As to have been shown the face of each other
By those powers whose essence we shall never understand
As long as we'll be on Earth!

Why, while I do wait
I shall run after butterflies
I shall cuddle lions
I shall mother baby bears
I shall race with planes
I shall kiss flowers
And I shall capture eagles!

While I do wait,
I shall close my eyes
And let poetic verses
Fill me up with such vigor
As to have me soaring high up
In the night skies while the rest of the world
Drunkenly drowns in their sleep!

Life and its Tests~~~

The tests of Life
Loom over me as if they were dark clouds
Ready to lash out at me with their rainy pellets
Drenching me and absorbing me in their mass
Burdening me and tiring me with their weight!

Of these have I made the essence of my daily living
Why, what is the aim of  living
If not, trying to prove to the higher powers
That we do repent having birthed
In a world whose meaning is still not clear?

Of these tests, though,
I do wish to make into successful notes
Onto these, I do wish to be able to hang on to
To be deemed as pure
And worthy of being forgiven!

Yet, most of the times, they seem
To be twisted into traps
Traps meant to have me plunge further into Earth's muck
Traps meant to have me want to be released
Forever, and to never have to care about them anymore!

Why, faced with Life's tests
I become as weak as is a flower in a rainstorm
Faced with Life's tests
I become as vulnerable as is a human
Inhabited by emotional turmoil!

Pray, it becomes then, a matter of obligation
To smile even when my shelters are cracking
To swallow my gulps and to give the best of me
Even when all I desire is to have the shadows engulf me
Why, it becomes a must to pretend to be bold

When Life's tests do keep looming over me
Reminding me each time, that I keep failing them
That somehow, they overpower me
And can, at any time,
Release lightning bolts, geared to turn me into dust!

Still, amidst these tests,
Are to be found, ever so subtly,
Cheat notes, encrypted in such a way
That only the heart can decipher them
Yes, notes they are, meant to be read only at their set time

Having as purpose, to imbibe us with hope
And love, aiming to remind us, that shelters do fall apart
But only to have, at their place,
Fortresses, erected, kept safe
By bonds over which we, mortals, have no control over!

And these notes, amidst life's tests
Are as soothing as are fireplaces
During winters' nights
Pray, life, tests, shelters, notes, love,
Everything is meant to come and go, as tides do on shores!

Better it is to learn to enjoy them
Better it is to learn to smile from the heart
Better is it indeed to live them as children do
Free, carefree, loved and fulfilled
By the simplicity of the comfort they do give!

The Proof of my Love~~~

When Existence felt my presence beside it,
It immediately morphed into my soul's counterpart!
Made of charm and virility,
He looked at me with questioning eyes!

What shall you do to prove your love to me,
He muttered

         Pray, said I, with a blushing giggle
         I shall renounce that identity which makes of me who I am
         I shall put my hands into yours,
        Trusting you vehemently,
        As seers do trust their Gods
        As cubs do trust their mothers
        As humans do trust their pets
        I shall devote myself solely to you
        For you are naught but the personification of the skies
       Chosen because the connecting thread
       That ties our hearts together
       Is one which has been present ever since
       The cosmos was brought into meaning!

        I shall smile when you do and cry when you command
        I shall live for you
       Wanting solely to see the great in you,
       Bloom into tropical paradises
       Made of lightheartedness and joy, at all times!

        I shall ask the heavens to thrust upon you
       The same awakening that they have thrust upon me
       So that you do get to wake from your slumber
       And cuddle me in your arms
      After realizing that all these lives that we have been living on Earth
      Was simply geared to allow us to enjoy this union!

         I shall revere your feet,

        As the believers do revere their divinities

        I shall sit by your side

        And make sure your every wish is satisfied

       Pray, I shall be your side, your companion, your slave,

       Your other half, your only cherished flower 

       Your strength, your aura, your shadow,

       Why, I shall be anything you desire!

Am I worth it? Whispered Existence's human form?

          Yes, you are! Said I,
          I have chosen, more than a decade ago, to keep on living my life
          In the hope of meeting you
         And bonding with you
         As the Gods desired it to be so
         I have chosen to live
         As I knew that in order to have our souls saved
         From the murky waters of this uncertain world
        We have to be seen as one complete representation of Love!

                   Is it enough, Existence, I queried?
                  Or do you require more?

The night's calm and chilled tone was enough
As I felt myself losing my awareness,
Torn about by an ecstatic show of love,
I could hear, at the back of my mind,
The moon, singing, out of sheer joy
But I, could only focus on the feel of the cold sand
Under me, and the insatiable feels of love,
As they dragged me, swiveling as narcotics do
In worlds over which none have control over their own senses!

Renewed Vows~~~

Stars in the night sky flaunt their grandeur at me
As if, they knew,
That I, mere mortal trapped in a human body,
Imbibed with a human consciousness,
Remaining always confused about my own meaning,
Shedding off bloody tears for no reason
Wanting solely to dispose of that which I am
And to be there, with them
Sparkling my grandeur in the night sky
Creating awe and amazement in those who
Love being that which they have been made into!

Seated all alone on a high cliff
Shivering painfully at the pricks of the cold air
I feel my heart start playing
Its usual sad and melancholic tunes
Hoping these would reach the abode of the Gods
And appease them of the anger they feel
Towards me, for having dared to fall
Into such a meaningless world!

Why, life is surely meaningless
If it remains ruled by Death,
Cursed by old age
And threatened by the imposition of diseases!
Life is surely meaningless
If it keeps fooling us at each step
To fall in love with it
Life is surely meaningless
If it keeps pretending to be the sole medium
Where consciousness and existence
Have married each other to produce
The beings that we and our peers are!

Stars, in the night sky, flaunt their grandeur at me
And I swallow my tears in heavy gulps
Why, I can only lower my pride
And renew my vows to the skies
To them have I claimed to belong
To them do I offer all that I am
May I thus be guided on paths chosen by them!

My summery haven~~~

The thunderstorm raging in the darkness of the night
Seemed so far away
The lightning flashes seemed unreal
The cold chilly air itself could not prick me
For I,
Had a light summery day reigning in me
A summery day accompanied by a warm coffee
And a delicious pie
A summery day which allowed birds to enjoy their existence
And fairies to party as long as they would want to
A summery day which pushed me to simply relax on the green grass
And to let go of my broods!

My summery haven was put into place by the skies
So as to allow me to fall in love with the fate they had thrust upon me
Without it,
I would simply be wondering
Why do I have to tread on the many paths of this murky world
Sometimes getting tangled in the roots of carnivorous plants
At other times getting drowned in moving sands!

My summery haven remains my island,
On which I rule, like a solo queen
Nothing can trigger me to an upset mood there
No one, except for the one chosen by the skies
To help me build sandcastles on empty shores
And laugh, together, like wild devils,
When we smash them to pieces
Before making love, with the same intensity felt
By ravenous lions when they come across meat!

The thunderstorm rages on
And I, content, can only close my eyes
To let the sweet summer scents of my summery haven
Fill up my being, from head to toe,
As drugs do invade the senses,
Making me believe that I have wings
And that, like the bees,
I can move, in my summery haven,
From flower to flower,
Enjoying the essence of my existence!

Love's Bolts

Lightning bolts hit my sleeping state

Hurting me to wake

To open my eyes

To smile at love's dawn

Peeping at my window!

Why, all this time, I have merely

Been seeped into darkness

Wanting not even to entangle myself from it

Wanting only to have my soul broken,

Disintegrating into millions of small pieces

So that the pain of living won't affect me anymore!

But the lightning bolts, sent from the highest heavens

Bid me to fall in love with love's dawn

To the extent of rejecting everything else

And devoting myself

Solely to embellish it,

To allow it to bloom into a dawn

Which remains everlasting,

With birds chirping while waves crash on cold shores

With droplets of dew blushing while love and I fremish

Unable to fight our tension anymore

And losing ourselves completely in the osmosis of our union!

Pray, the essence of life is to love

While the essence of love is to surrender

And faced with the glare of love's dawn

Love's dawn thrust upon my sheltering darkness

By the highest subtle powers

I can only be a lover, a lover being as thirsty

As a fallen angel, yearning to hear the mystical songs

Emanating from the skies' hidden abodes!