Broods' Blues~~~

I've been asked to live my life
My youth, or, at least, the remaining bit of it
Shall be snatched away from me
My radiance shall fade into murky shades
My zeal shall dissipate into vapour
And my energy shall drop to below frightening levels!

I've been asked to live my life yes,
But what is the meaning of this life?
What is its purpose
And where am I headed to
Guided mercifully by the skies
I do act out as I do deem it right
Hoping that the consequences of my actions
Won't strike me back
Yet,
Life, without the love willed to me
Is merely a blank page of paper
A story unwritten
A poem not spoken
A song not sung
A disgrace,
A moment meant not to be glorified
A moment meant to be used to self mortification
Self destruction and self immolation!

Why, my youth shall flower again, somewhere
Where I glimpsed once, in a dream
My youth shall flower but my heart,
My frail and sensitive heart
Shall bounce only if it shall be fulfilled
And its fulfillment remains solely in acting out
As the skies willed it;
Love's and mine hands meant to be scotched to each other
With a rage so powerful
That no force in Existence
Can cause them to be detached!

I've been asked to live
But living, while forsaking the skies' will
Is certainly not worth it!

The Crystal Ball

While I waltzed at the Ball

A little voice I heard

Go ask the Crystal Ball

It said, to have your future heard!

I left the dancing knight in doom in the playroom

Opened the door of the secret room

And verily inquired of the Future

If it will come with Defeature!

No, laughed the Happy Ball

You will not remain a Fallen Soul

You will be saved by your mate in Soul

All you need to do is to give him a Call

And tell him how miserable you are without his Enthrall

And how you will give your Catcall

To lament at Nightfall

If He is not here to stop your Fall

Smile, cried the joyful Ball

Your miserable state will be in Stall

For you shall Rise, along with the Sunrise

Together with your mate, whom you Idolise

Both of you will be Symbolised

Sing, whispered the overwhelmed Ball

For the Heavens will be singing words of Praise

At your mate's love for your Gaze

Your abandon in your Maze

That which you chose in a moment of Craze

So blind were you to be love of your Mate

Will be remembered as late

Dance, asserted the ecstatic Ball

For the Future is coming at the Birdcall

Your Mate cannot be without your caring Call

And neither can You be without his Recall.

Oh I am Impatient,

Without your Love, I am Deficient

I am still in Learning

To be Abiding,

Please forgive my Caprice

For I become heartbroken without your Edifice

Freedom, is it~~~~

If the cosmos offered me freedom
By allowing me to jump into the ocean
Of pleasures
From my tied up fate with Love
I still would refuse it!

After all, Love is because of which I have been created
Love is because of which I exist today,
Love shall forever be because of which I shall be!

Love remains the stars which glitter in the night sky
Love remains the songs of my guardian fairies on days
When despair's tears stream down my face
As abundantly as flood waters do as they crash down from mountains
Love remains the force of the breath which allows my heart to beat
And my body to function!

Without Love, I would have no purpose in Existence
And I would simply choose to opt out of life
Instead of enjoying a dip in the ocean of pleasures!

Pray, someday, I wish to be there where it all started
Decked in sparkling moon gleam attire
And smile at Love
Radiantly and tell him
I've never doubted of your love
Even if Earth was such a treacherous place to have it acted out!
I've never doubted of your love
As even if we were held prisoners by the many games of Maya,
The Goddess did deem it best to whisper of your name to me
I've never doubted of your love
Even if we were so like metal and soft cotton!
I've never doubted of your love
As I've sworn to the Goddess to submit to it
As long as it would require!

Why, freedom seems so painful
When compared with your love
Freedom remains like a ship lost in a storm at sea
Or even like a plane responding not to any commands
Freedom, without you,
Feels indeed like forced slavery!
And if the cosmos offered it to me
Why,
I would be the most cursed soul in the entire universe!

The Silence of My Heart~~~

If I open up my heart
And show you the tremors
That have invaded my secret haven
Because of you
Would you allow me to unfold, for us both, love's wings
And fly towards there
Where sunsets are passionately tainted wine red?

If I open up my heart
And read to you
The story of our connection
As the Goddess had whispered to me in my dreams
Would you allow me the opportunity
To continue with the narrative of our romance
As we will live it here on Earth?

If I open up my heart
And play for you
The tunes of the Heavenly abodes
As they rhythmically pace with us
Waiting for when we would appease them
Merely by allowing us to be
Would you then believe in the mysticism
That surrounds us both?

If I open up my heart
And choose to give it to you
To cherish or to trample upon
As you so desire
Would you hand out your palm
And accept it?

My heart, though, remains beating and frail
Opening up to you seems to be what it wants
It had been so even before the Goddess had made it known
That such is what She desires
Yet,
My heart is sealed into silence
Bound by societal laws
Which govern the being of a woman!

My heart can respond,
My heart cannot open up
Even if its chosen silence
Is suffocating it!

Love's Bearing

Love, said I
Without you, flowers would sway not
Without you, clouds would cry all the times
Without you, music would not be played
And poetry would be all extinct!

Love, said I
Without you, this world does not deserve its existence
Without you, I, myself have no purpose in functioning
Without you, the whole cosmos would be torn apart
As, you, yes, you, are the spark that ignites everything!

You ignite my heart as to have it swirling into whirlpools
You ignite my broods as to have me smiling contentedly for no reason
You ignite my inner heaven as, in the very end, it is your home
Your ignite my soul, as you remain its missing part
You even ignite my senses as to cause them to yearn for your dew!

Love, said I
Without you, nothing would make sense
So much that I would even refuse the heavens
Caring not for their stability and sooth
Seeking, rather, the solace of that which feels not
Why, like waves, like stones, like the wind and the stars even
Love,
Without you, even Death has no significance!

Love, said I
I am the fickle human, and you, God
I am the blown seed, and you, an orchard
I am a note, and you, a whole composition
I am a poetess and you, my muse
I am lost, and you, my destination!

Love,
Without you, living,
Yes, living merely for the sake of it
Is certainly not worth it!

Said I to Dusk

When Lovers, are for each other,

All smitten,

Pray, it is said that the universe

Does pave the way for them

To unite!

When Lovers, feel, for each other,

Genuinely and abundantly

Why, the Gods themselves

Blush and shower blessings on them!

Pray, is Love not meant to be such

Even if the world is laden

With the impositions of Time,

And with the rule of Death?

After all, 

Would this world even have been

If Love had not been its sparkle?

For Creation to have been,

Somehow, Existence must have felt His own loneliness

Weigh down on him

So much that He brought everything else forth

And now,

Being His children,

We can help not but adhere to His example!

Why, when Lovers are gifted with a pure heart

Pray, even the forces of darkness

Shy away to allow them

To saunter along their paths

With hands held

And with violins playing from their hearts!

Pray, such did I say to Dusk,

As it bid the Sun to doze

Thereby bringing me to sit and wonder

At the very meaning of Love!

Say, Love~~~

Say, Love,
Look at the skies
Reach for them with your soul and
Plant creepers in your heart
So that they do pave the way for us
To get back there
Someday,
When we shall be done
With our load of duties!

Love,
Look at me
And see that which I hide
Hear that which I say not
Understand that which I make out as being a puzzle
Look at me
And open your consciousness
To allow it to be imbibed
Of that which you have forgotten;
The very cause of your passage here on Earth
The very cause of my fall
The very reason why the skies will us to be!

Love,
Look at the deities
And see your power in their essence
See your need for their grace
See your gratitude for their guidance
But also,
See your purpose as they desire it to be!

Love,
The transcendent glory of our story
Shall be celebrated in the heavens
Only if you do look at all that which surround you
With a mystical gaze!

Love,
The human flesh perishes
However much humanity does try to preserve it
As life on Earth remains like a sentence in a prison,
A prison laden with traps and with outstretched borders
Why, there where we belong,
Existence shines on
With some sort of comforting stability!

Love,
I shall cling on to you
As koalas stay stuck on trees
I shall cling on to you
As stars do in the sky every single night
I shall cling on to you
As mystics do to their own beliefs
For, other than for you,
I shoulder no purpose in this tricky world!

Love,
Look at the skies
And listen to them
As they speak to you!

Mystical Echoes

I looked at Love,
Felt the warmth of his presence melt me,
Indulged in the rising dance of butterflies in my heart,
Woke up to the pulsating beats of his charisma in my senses
And wondered,
If he knew about the past life we had lived!

Why, the skies have granted me the grace of remembering
So much that even without really knowing Love in depth
I seem to read and understand him from afar!

I had run, from him and his ardour
Which had turned cruel towards me
I had run, seeking to find refuge in a world
Where misery and suffering abound
I had run, hoping to lose  myself in that web
So much that while being lost,
So would be my memories and the feelings that I hold for him!

But it would seem that love, when true and pure
Knows not any sort of severance
Love, willed upon by the powers which make up existence
Remains, solidly coiled around itself
As if it were the product of black holes merged with each other
As if it were the product of Existence and Consciousness,
That which is known as none other than life itself!

Why, ever since I was willed my memory
I have been living in some sort of sweet agony
Wondering if I would ever find him in such a vast Earth
Ever since I started writing,
My lines were constantly filled by my quest and with my insecurities
And now that I am aware of his ties to me
All my words are dedicated to him!

I looked at Love
Breathed in the soothing peace that his aura thrusts at me
And wondered if I shall ever muster the courage
To open the curtains of my heart
And to let him hear
Of the sweet songs sung by the higher powers therein
And give him a show
Of the beautiful paintings drawn by mysticism therein
All of them, simply celebrating the sweet and passionate
Jolts that allow us to love
Even if that love dates back
From the time Creation was not even existing!

My existence~~~~

The weight of the pain that throbs my soul
Is merely a tiny fickle of dust
Trying to find its way amidst the vastness of existence
So as to make me feel soiled!

The exalt of the joy that pulses through my heart
Is more vibrant than angels' songs
As Love, when chosen by the skies, has no comparison
And cannot be described and explained through words!

Why, when the skies themselves have deemed that such should be
Enacting it does solely feel
Like a taste of honey on a fragrant morning
Or even like a sip of wine on a romantic night
Why, it does even feel like the warmth of the sun
As cold air stings the skin on a chilly day!

Having been touched by the tip of a magic wand
I have become enamored with love
As saints are with mysticism
As clouds are with the wind
As waves are with the shoreline
As lovers are with their beloveds!

Pray, living has no meaning other than fulfilling same
As life on Earth equates with death and temporality
And with the beauty of that which can be acknowledged
But which cannot be discerned!

Similarly, the soothing night air remains so comforting
With stars scattered across the cosmos
As if willing me to remember that I remain tinier
Than this particle of dust trying to soil me
So, whether I am imbibed with pain or with joy
Matters not, as faced with the skies,
I do not even exist!

In Love's Frenzy

Love's exalt fills me up
And like a blown balloon
I can't help but allow myself to fly
Soaring up high over fields and meadows
Even over mountains and seas,
Being so like a soul, having been gifted
The boon of youthful eternity!

Love, till now, had me quite mistaken
Why lovers do relish of each other
In every possible way
Be it in physical form
Or even in conversational form
And I,
Naively,
Sought out solely to fill myself up
Emotionally, as if,
I were still that pampered child
Who desired naught but good care
From all those who claimed to love me!

Why, love's arrows have been pricking me so much
That ready am I to break my rules
Pray, after all, if so desired the skies
A sinner would I be
If I heeded not to theirs and to love's demands!

Like a fruit seeking to be plucked,
Like a bird waiting to be set free
Like a slave dreaming of freedom
Like river water wishing to meet the ocean
Like a nymph desiring to be satisfied
Like a Goddess wanting to be venerated
So am I,
Yearning to lose myself in love's frenzy
As such remains my sole purpose on an Earth
Which belongs neither to me nor to Love!

Pray, the exalt of love fills me up
And like a blown balloon
I am flying over life's sceneries
Enjoying each and every facet that I am discovering!

The fireworks of Life

Say, if I choose to escape it all
And fly back to the skies
Where, everyone shall shower me with love
But, not of the type
That can be shared by you and me
Pray,
The pain and the throb would hurt still
So much that
I would once more,
Wish to run from there
To someplace where I would feel not
Where I would remember not
Where I would not be conscious
Of that deep tie which binds us both!

Why, like a Goddess enamored only by her God
Like a withered flower waking up only to water
Like a butterfly attracted solely to nectar
So am I, lost in adoration
For that essence that you are
Ever since the skies whispered to me
That you are the missing part of my soul!

The beings up there in the skies
Are as worried as I am
Should it be that we fail this ordeal
Pray, the lights of joy would be turned off there
The birds and the crickets would sing not anymore
The angels would cry continuously
And the higher powers would have their life force doused off
While the whole expanse of the skies
Would simply succumb to destruction and turned into inert matter!

Why, the meaning of each human being is well inscribed in his soul
Ours remain that of opening our heart's gates
And letting the muddy water flow out
So that new ponds sprinkle up, made of fresh water
Clear and pure enough as to allow
The God of Love himself
To dwell therein!

Why, I could have escaped it all
But out of Love for you
And for the higher powers
I am battling with demons
While hiding in dark pits
And surviving on dirty waters!

Pray, may Life itself play its fireworks
So that their sparkle does catch your gaze
And you do realize the meaning of it all!

God's Secret~~~~

Our search for God shall remain unending
We shall search for Him in the skies
We shall search for Him in the scriptures
In religious architectures,
Even in nature
Why, we shall even search for Him deep within us!

But the higher power with which He is made of
Shall keep surrounding Him in subtleness
Allowing Him to hide Himself from us
On purpose,
While seeking to test us, and our love for Him!

Pray, claim I to be one of His most obedient servants
Desire I to fulfill His wish,
As, since life on Earth holds no meaning,
By ending as it wills
And not as I will it to
Why, it becomes clear that my whole Existence
Is to be geared towards God and His game of hide and seek!

Walk I on the path that He drew for me
As Tom Thumb did,
While following only those stones that lead me
To where I am meant to be!
Walk I on my path
As Ahab did,
Bent obsessively on the growth of my enlightenment!

Pray, should I fail to honor God and His will
Why, I would consider it that I failed my purpose
And would deem myself as unworthy
As a soldier who has deserted his regiment!

My sole purpose on Earth is to fulfill my life's meaning
And that remains being able to throw away my guns,
And draw on my white flag,
The essence of Love!

Yes, Love is that secret which shall allow us to find God
As, in the very end,
He Himself is Love
And expects us to live imbibed with such!