Lost~~~

I often sink down a sink hole

Somewhere where the wind blows not

Somewhere which is neither cold nor hot

Somewhere which even the Devil would not hold

For it is someplace so old

That it has no name

It holds no fame

And it is itself at shame!

When such does happen

I no longer am the strong maiden

I do submit to my own weakness

And remember the days when I was ageless

When I could hold the Earth in my palm

And cure myself of hate's harm!

When such does happen,

I do wish I was already in Eden!

A sink hole it is,

Filled not with an icy breeze

Pulsating not with the songs of Angels

Ringing not with the beauty of church bells

A sink hole it is,

Putting me in a state of unease

Always ready to grab my happiness

Always ready to make me cry for my own distress

When I sink down such a hole

You shall find me not in the south or north pole

Lost shall I be, for a moment

Till I complete my rhyme

That shall be for quite some time

While it does last my torment

I shall be for you, invisible,

Always unreal and so subtle!

I find not the exit of this doomed place

There, the Lord even refuses to show me his grace

Pity and mercy are not strong enough

Cruelty does laugh in the rough

My heart does bleed there

Bleeding and screaming for air

For there is where I remember the love I lost

Once, when I believed I was for this world, the very host!